Michelin Tires ([info]nakedontheinner) wrote,
@ 2009-06-03 11:16:00
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Current mood: Devastated

I wish she would get out of my head, its making it impossible for me to live my life.
Every other night I have a dream about someone who doesn't exist in my life any more. Sometimes I think shes dead and I cry. Sometimes I run into her and she tells me she loves me so vividly I wonder if shes having the same dream 2 miles away.

I know its good shes not in my life right now, but if shes never in it again my faith in the world, which already disappears when I need it the most, will be gone forever.

When will this stop? When will my body be mine again?


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[info]beyondfake_0
2009-06-03 04:16 pm UTC (link)
What happened between you two?

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[info]nakedontheinner
2009-06-03 05:40 pm UTC (link)
Long story short: Both of us really love eachother, and we want to get married and have kids and all of that, but she doesn't want to be with me yet, she has a lot of her own stuff to work out and shes not ready to be in a relationship, so we went back and forth for a while and I waited around, then I realized if I waited around much longer I'd never forgive her for how miserable I was, so I told her she needed to get out of my life (nicely of course) and we ended things on good terms.

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[info]beyondfake_0
2009-06-04 06:06 am UTC (link)
Ugh, that sucks. :( My relationship with Liss was like that damn it's hard.

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[info]nakedontheinner
2009-06-04 04:48 pm UTC (link)
Yeah =( I go back and forth between being ok with it and being absolutely miserable and non-functioning.

How did you get through it?

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[info]beyondfake_0
2009-06-05 05:32 am UTC (link)
I didn't really. I put up with it for two years about. We broke up, then got back together, and that's when I realized it really wasn't working out.

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[info]nakedontheinner
2009-06-06 12:58 am UTC (link)
so you're still not over it?

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[info]beyondfake_0
2009-06-09 05:40 am UTC (link)
Hmm, I am now. But I admit, I wasn't for a while, even after I hooked up with my current GF. I didn't really get any closure, and I guess that's why.

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